What is thy name???

I am sorry...i give up.... mr-talkative-marketing i tried....aftr several years there has been somebody who has left an impression on my mind and it is him..his years of experience in the industry and my lil time in the industry..has taught me..(ufcourse from him)... " Never see the bad in anyone...negatives everybody has....try finding something positive... " Well..sadly it seems..i can never be the-one-minute-manager..bt nevertheless, A manager for sure in few months..when i graduate out of a bschool...!!
Narcisisim is too strong a word to use...bt if we mellow it done by cms.... is wht dominates everybdys mindset today.... If Robert Frost was alive today..there would be a new poem by him... " I have lies to make....miles to go before i sleep "... Everybody will go to any extent to do it....has everything lost meaning???
The recent news on BBC talks about the lifting of the moratorium on killing of whales...So does it makes us interpret that the concern which the goverment had for the whales is now dead?? So now the rules can be modified and the killing can be allowed??? Ethical?? did we say???? But why do we only blame the goverment..when the problem starts at the grass root levels...and builds on till the top...probably because it always feels lighter to place blame on someone elses shoulder and feel good about it yayy..!
I have never been a Gandhi fan...but his 3 monkeys have always fascinated me... now there is an era of the new monkeys..where they do not change their positions...just the meanings change... 1. dont say the truth.. 2. dont listen good about anybody.. 3. dont see what is right... people have lost their capability of judgement.. Shakespeare has put it rightly in his play Julius Ceaser when Antony gives his speach nd says.." That humans have lost their capability of judging things..and it has passed on to animals..." How ironical?? What Shakespeare thought ages ago still holds true in this big dark world...!!
I am not an eternal pessimist.. I understand there is still some good left in this world...but the herd mentality is playing its game smartly... people do not want to be left behind...
IS this the world we live in????

A new chapter.....

One year comes to an end...the much awaited year...and it has not been dissapointing...its good being away...this one year has brought a lot of things with it apart from the learning...most importantly the motley of people that you find and the new dimensions that it adds to your life...
Rule number one in bschool is : Learn to tolerate nonsense..if u cannot do so...u Quit...! Thanks to prof-stop-cribbing that hs been the most important learning out there... A stay away from home is a must...it is an altogether a new experience...its beautiful...siting beside Osamn Sagar lake n enjoying the breeze...walking on the sort-of-highway in pitch dark without taking to anyone and when no one can be seen around...the most wonderful nd joyous ride has been a ride back to campus in an auto siting behind watching the beauty of the moon and starless nights and appreciating the beauty of nature..understanding the importance of the warmth of the hostel room on a night out and wanting to be cozy back home but nevertheless njoying it...cravings for the yummy home food but still managing with any food apart from mess food has its charm in its own way....the long walks nd the endless talks nd the mid-night coffees and the occasional parties...each have their own charm in thier own way...its a beautiful experience...

musings of an empty mind...

the much awaited time has come... in two months i l be getting what i had always wanted...break free...bt what has happened to the hapiness?? i should be dancing with hapiness..is what sum ppl have told me..bt i cnt feel it...y i dunno....maybe its because of the parasite around me... the-leech-effect as i call it....vrything feels incomplete..i feel a desperate need of a portia to stop this sucking of blud business..its INSANE..bt most of all..its this helpless feeling that makes everybody go insane..... the human version of parasite is untolerable..

now its past two months whn i have got what i always wanted in life...m away...n happy...someone has said "ignorance is bliss " .....trust me...it is....m nt heartless....i do miss things back...bt the hapiness of not tolerating the parasite and being satisfied with the fact tht the parasite has momentarily stopped sucking blood is much more nd it nullifies everything to a large extent...a brother sister relationship is the purest form of a relationship..jus like a mother nd a son relationship....or mayb i thot so....!!! NO.... it is....!! it doesnt change because some alien parasite walks in nd says tht things on my planet dont work tht way....this is our earth nd things still remain the same...dont they??? only if parasites could be eliminated..the world would be a much better place to live in...

the no-entry widout the no...

Loving was something I ran from.
Trusting was something that didn't come easy.
Being myself was something I could never do.
Faking a smile was something that came naturally.
Hating myself was something I could not hide.
Being free was something that seemed so far away.
Wishing was something I learned didn't come true.
Everything was just so fake to me.
I was a stranger to myself.
But that all changed in one quick heartbeat.
When you said you loved me..........................

a new beginning or an end....

Either i am going insane or the whole world is conspiring against my happiness...everything seems to be over...in a fraction of a second my a lil world no longer exists....best of friends...have vanished...why...i have no clue...everybody does what is good for them...people do what is important for them...nd thats the lifestyle am gonna adopt soon...where my whole world will hover around my happiness..nd its time to think about the real ME.....the extra special ppl...the understandings..the time sharing...everything is over now...these r the ephemeral joys of growing up...didnt noe that dis is the way its gonna be over.....i always thot saying something had two meanings...m still a novice in this new new world...i suddenly feel like an alien....alien in my own world on wich i stepped 21 yrs ago...its a strange strange world...people have their own comprehensions...own interpretations...everything has an altogether different meaning..listening to them gives me gooseflesh..wots rong wid my sense of reasoning?? why cant i think that way as well????? belonging to a birla school since childhood...strongly feel all schools should be shut down....r u asking y??? because...they didnt teach me the real comprehensions nd interpretations of life...so y did i pay them???? and y because of them i should be an alien in my own world...m nt seeking sympathies...broad shoulders to lean on....not anymore....its time to get up...nd make sumthing out of my life...be what my "pathshaala" tot me...nd be d small town yet happy in my own world gal that i alwys was...nd one lastt thing...there are no relations in this world....there is only person that exists...nd thats "ME"....one relation thats "I" and one person that each one of us love and thats "MYSELF"....i l be a part of the race very soon....

d girl next door....

i hate men.....dts the first thing that comes to ur mind when u watch dis flick...not evn men...u hate females as well..nd start loving your mom a lot...more than u do right now...its a cruel ugly world...based on a true story..it revolved around the torture meted out to two sisters by their five stepbrothers and stepmom..no its not the usual not giving them food or differentiating amongst them...its gross!!! for sins which were not committed...the gal is stripped in fronta all the people in her house by her own brother with her hands tied up and mouth as well....then a knife goes inside her naval with bloood gushing out....nd den d step mom takes her cigrate nd inserts it in her naval....what has she done do deserve all dis??? not evn rape victims are traumatised so badly...if u think dts all...its not...then d othr son appears...ties her up again...nd has ANAL *** wid her...r u asking y?? thts becasue she tries to escape from the captivity...dts nt all...d step mom wants to do somethng to her so tht no man ever wants her..nd tht can be done if just one point in her body is removed....do i need to mention its her ... V....she burns it....!!! u dont expect someone to live after tht...do u...?? who says...its a beautiful world??? is dis the world we live in....!!!! clutching my remote...hugging my pillow...i have never felt so helpless while watching a movie....!! everygal is vulnureble...ready to b attacked by a bunch of salivating foxes..all they need is d body...y dont they try corpses???? necrophiles????

a dark pit...

its tiring..brain draining nd i dunno wt not...t js statd wd sum multitasking shit...and has been streching on and on..more dn a rubber band...more dan fusengum...its shitty and crappy....wn ppl r angry...do they forgt wt d other prson supposedly means for dem...or mayb everythn is a mirage....its a self-centred world...all people care abt is just themselves...and it hovers around "me" and caters to"my needs" everythn else is bullshit......vrybdy is cncrnd abt "wt i have done" nd d adjustments nd the so called sacrifices....a conclusion by them is the end of all discussions....because they are saints suffering between a bunch of sinners....vrybdy but them is a sinner....
all i miss is some peace in dis world....i wanna flyyyyyy away....far away from everybdy.....just some time alone...shut myself up away from the whole world............!!!! i hate it....!!!! stayin at home is the cherry on the cake....wt a piss offf....!! wr is god....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!