nice one...

Just by the thought of you I find myself all sad again.

I've lost you, but also gained.

I know I must be grateful, but my soul is sad for you.

I'll remember you always for the good you have done, for the seed you have sown, for the faith you have given me and for the example you set.

Yet, I find myself all sad again, in my thoughts, in my joys.

My thoughts are closed, cause you don't look there anymore.

The season is over and I know I must be happy but the loss is too big and the pain too intense.

I need to tell you my new story, see your eyes, experience your smile

I just so much wish you could see the harvest of my life from the seeds you have sown!

Especially now, when it's full in harvest - I know your soul would have smiled. B

ut then again, although I'm sad - I know I'm glad - cause I know I've saved you. I'll rest my heart in that . .